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I. Rape Yourself [10:35]
II. Ego Death [16:51]
III. The Burning Abyss [3:37]
IV. Helen Keller [8:37]
V. Nothingsong (Worship The Void) [15:09]
-total running time-
54:51
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Very rare and limited to 6, this option will come in a small, cardboard box with personalized artwork by Xavier "Abysmal" and will contain both L'éveil Par La Mort, and the d.i.y. live album, None Of Our Lives Matter, And We Are All Going To Die, which had become the foundation on which this album was made; in addition, this sordid alchemist's box will contain a secret bonus item that assisted just as intregally in shaping the music on the studio debut.
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The premise behind this song is the idea that when we face abuses, whether by individuals or systemically or both, and we do not feel empowered enough to stand up against this, we often feel we have no other choice but to turn this oppression inwardly, we perpetuate the same abuses against ourselves and one another. I am no stranger to this state of being, and I have for a long time felt as though I have been, on some foundational and spiritual level, raping myself.
lyrics
[Part I: Indentured Servitude]
From the time that you are born
To the time you grow old and die,
You remain the constant subject
To the command on which you rely.
And you'll find out that,
As the older you get,
The more you have to justify
Your right to exist,
For your life is a debt,
One which you must pay for as long as you live.
And the demand that's placed on your shoulders
Weighs down heavy and unrelenting.
Always bracing yourself for crisis,
Always fearing for your wellbeing.
Keep your head down and do as you're told,
And follow the orders of a dying code,
Or you can drown in a bottle of guilt,
And starve on the streets without a family or home.
Irreverence becomes your only security,
The only haven from a past of blind convictions,
But you can't help but wince at your every move,
As you find that your disillusionment is just another religion.
[Part II: Indignity]
Is existence just the outcome of bootless persistence
And every action committed an act of failure?
Like an abusive relationship that thrives on the victim's excuses,
Do we live simply to find meaning in our own torture?
Is everyone expendable and recycled like trash?
Do we all live on the back of somebody else?
Unjustifiable seems the atrocity of being alive,
For needlessly we obey and serve the kingdom of the blind.
Or is existence just the expression of mutual need?
Perhaps indignity was always the real cancer.
All of our misery can be traced to our confusion,
Our unmet hopes and dreams.
credits
from L'éveil Par La Mort,
released June 26, 2021
Xavier - voice, piano
Samuel - guitar
Maxwell - bass guitar
Robert - drums & percussion
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