Child Stability (Tears Of The Ocean Bearer) [BendeZ mix]

from Tears Of The Ocean Bearer [demo single] by Heart Of The Bereaved

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A fish like Daemon swims vigorously
Through the aches in my body,
A product of unintegrated aspects
Of my psyche,
Segregated elements of the Self
In unlit, clammy rooms,
This shadow was begotten by an upbringing
Of existential doom.
Unwelcomed, unloved, chagrined,
The child is closed off
And constricted in an airtight box.
What was once fluid and free
Transmutes and condenses into something I've called
Stability.

Repressed emotions
Smothered like birds and insects
Trapped inside of a house
With too much insulation.
Their talons scratch,
And their beaks beat
At the walls in desperation.
They have no choice but to become
The Daemon fish,
The unnamed, the unvoiced and marginalized,
The ineffable (and inevitable) anguish.

And I feel them trying to escape
From the crown of my head,
The tension evaporating
Like water into the clouds.
The monster born
From my sense of madness
Has finally caught up with me.
The only thing that I can do
Is to let it devour me.

I let it devour me.
I let it devour me.
I am consumed.
I let myself be consumed.
I let myself give up.
I finally let myself give up.

Like a buzzsaw ripping
And slicing me into bleeding pieces,
It finally sets me free
From Stability.

The love comes pouring into me
Like thousands of years of dried up oceans
Being refilled.
Everything is reborn,
And more vibrant than the last time.
I finally let myself die,
And everything is reborn.
Everything is reborn.
Everything is reborn.

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from Tears Of The Ocean Bearer [demo single], released January 7, 2023

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